Monday, May 26, 2008

All is Well

Morgan had a very smooth surgery that went down last Wednesday. His parents drove all night to be here a few hours before we went to the hospital so we were very lucky to have their moral and physical support. I feel so fortunate to have a loving and available family who could be here for us.

Morgan is healing but needs to be taking it easy. He's going to be out of work for about 6 weeks but his boss is amazing and we are grateful that he has a job to return to. The funniest part is watching Morgan drop something and the look of distress on his face is quite comical because he realizes he can't bend over to pick it up.

Just wanted to let you all know that we are doing well and appreciate your good wishes!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Deep Breathing

I'm doing my best to keep busy busy today to keep my mind off current family events. Morgan is having surgery tomorrow to relieve a pinched nerve in his lower back that has been hurting and getting worse over the past 3 months. I'm pretty freaked out and I'm not even the one going under the knife. :::deep breath::: I'll keep you all posted though I am sure the surgery will go smoothly and all will be well. My in-laws are on the way like a pair of amazing angels and will be here sometime very o-dark early tomorrow morning to see us before Morgan goes in for surgery around 7:30 am.

Keep us in your prayers please.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

In the Still of the Night

It's 11:00 pm and the whole house is quiet and still. Today was a busy and fun day with lots of BBQ, cooking and visiting with friends. I'm tired in that satisfied kind of way, but I don't want to go to bed. I'm clinging to today by my fingertips to keep tomorrow from coming. If I go to bed I will wake up tomorrow morning with a test to draft, copies to make and a house to clean. If only I could make time slow a bit more so there is nothing waiting to be done when I open my eyes next...

Random bits:

1. Love listening to music on Pandora. If you haven't heard of it, I dare you to try it.

2. I made a Coconut Lime Cake today from The Cook's Kitchen Bible. It was wonderful and much easier than I thought it would be. The guys loved it and thought it was a nice balance to all the spice of the BBQ.

3. I had to rip back the entire gusset of the Baudelaire sock because I increased on the wrong side of the instep. This will be my first pair of toe-up socks and they're killing me. This yarn and I are having an (off-kilter) love affair that seems to be made to end badly (like those late night cravings for curry) so I suppose I shouldn't be too surprised that the pattern is kicking me, too.

4. I picked out the paint for Emma's big girl room and I have one month and counting to paint the walls, do a tree and a couple of faeries. Stay tuned, pictures will be forthcoming.

5. I miss my father. I miss the way he always hugged me too hard, like I was never too fragile, just too valuable to not be hugged tightly. I miss cooking with him. I miss his advice which was never sharp, given sparingly and well worth every minute. Now that I am a parent I am gaining a greater appreciation of my father in so many ways and I miss his presence dearly.

Good night, my dears.

Friday, May 16, 2008

A Day

I am having A Day. You know those days. I'm tried and drained and so far nothing has gone terribly wrong, but it's as if the hamster that turns the wheels has fallen off.

If I was 6 years younger I would have spent a beautiful, sunny but blah day like this in the park with tuna sandwiches, a frisbee and a good share of vodka-spiked kool-aid to make it all better. Ah, the relaxation of a misfit youth. Alas, there is to be no vodka or frisbee this afternoon. Us Mommies are made of sterner stuff and must revert to coffee, naptime and cookies. *sigh* Wish me luck...and send more cookies.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to me! My husband loves me so much that he decided to buy me a bike (of my choosing) for Mother's Day. Lucky me!! I am so psyched and this is the one I chose.

Aint she a beauty? I know, she's really pink, but I'm thrilled and I wish I had her right now. The only downside is that the store is out of stock of this bike so I have a rain check and I have to wait until their next shipment. Until then, I'll just dream about bike rides in the warm sunshine and trips to the park.

May your Mother's Day be delightful!

Thursday, May 08, 2008


As parents, Mommies in particular, we tend to talk a bit differently than before children came into our worlds. I noticed this when I was pregnant and talking to a colleague who was holding her child. I asked the little girl how old she was and the mother responded for her daughter.

"We're four years old," she said.

My response, "Are we now?" Said with a smile, it was meant as a humorous observation not a mocking remark.

I now find myself making similar "we" statements on a regular basis without a second thought.

"We've been sick this week."

"We're growing so quickly."

"We love M&Ms."

And the truth of the matter is that after having a child we are never a singular individual again. Marriage makes us partners, but being a parent makes you an indivisible part of a unit. The moments you spend alone are almost nonexistent so it's honest to say that whatever happens to one is usually shared by another. It's more than that though, it's the fact that even when your child is not around they are constantly on your mind. Like a limb that is missing, you are acutely aware of it's absence.

The physical reminders of parenthood and that filial link will never disappear either. Emma has a fascination with bellybuttons and when she tells me, "No, that's mine!" I tell her it's mine, too because it is where we used to be connected. Her body will always hold that mark, just like every human will. As a mother, my body will always bear witness to the stretching and aching of holding another human being inside me, cradling the most precious creation I have known.

It's now been three years since she came into existence and it seems like forever that we have been "We."

Friday, May 02, 2008

The Urge to Serge!

Okay, there really wasn't any serging, but I had to use that as a title just for fun.

Yesterday the sewing bug bit me hard and I just HAD TO sew something. Since Emma now has a dress and nightgown fetish, I thought it would be nice to make her a few nighties from a pattern I picked up...for $.25 at a second hand store. I am so thrifty some times I impress myself. *big smile*

Anyway, the Cotton Shop has their striped and polka-dots knits on sale so we dashed down there and bought three super-cute fabrics to make nightgowns. Emma also has a thing for polka-dots. No idea where she got it. *ahem*

The nightgown is cute and huge. I am pretty sure Emma will be able to wear it until she goes into Second Grade. Based on her excited reaction when she first saw it, she might even try to.

As a side note: my very own cute and handy decorating idea is indoor clothes lines. Two nails and a length of thread make the perfect display set. You can clip pictures, fabrics, ideas or sewing instructions. It's so very handy when you need to free up table space but still have a way of checking pattern directions often. I'm planning to put one up in an empty hall space we have to hang Emma's drawings on. The fridge is getting waaaaaaay too crowded.

Now, if you will excuse me, it's nap time for her so I'm going to go sew myself a shirt. Ta ta!